Hello my wonderful, favorite readers of mine.
Today I just wanted to sit down, take a breath, and have a heart to heart with all of you about where my mind has been lately.
So busy. Man, I have been so beyond busy you would not believe it.
Here’s a breakdown of my current weekly schedule
Monday & Wednesday- 6 hours of high school classes + 3 hours of college geology
Tuesday- 6 hours of high school classes
Thursday- 6 hours of high school classes + 4 hours of work
Friday- 4 1/2 hours of work
School. School has taken up most of my free time this trimester. I love Spanish to death, but there’s no denying it’s increasing difficulty. On the other hand, I have strongly disliked my Geology class from the first time I sat through the painstakingly long three hour lecture. Both classes have provided me a multitude of assignments on top of my mandatory high school work.
However, I don’t want to be misunderstood, I am very grateful for my privileged education and head start on my associates degree. It can just be overwhelming at times.
Selling my used clothes on Vinted is another thing that has been keeping me occupied recently. If you’ve never heard of the newish app, it’s where anyone who has a phone and a camera can upload women’s clothing, shoes or accessories and make money from home! I’ve been obsessed with all that it has to offer and how easy it is to sell and buy. I’ve already sold two items and it hasn’t even been a week since making my account. whoo hoo…. but I’ve also bought two items also…. we’ll just call it a win win.
In no way am I sponsored by Vinted, I just truly love the site and community and wanted to share it with you. It’s great for me since I’m trying to save up money for a few trips I want to take and my first car. If you’re interested in shopping my closet perhaps, you can do it here: http://www.vinted.com/members/3148587-moodymadeline
And last but not least, I’ve been doing a lot of deep thinking. Mostly about God.
Growing up in a Christian home, I was educated on the “rapture”, or end of life as we know it, at a very young age. And I would assume it’s normal for any 8 year old to have fear of the unknown future, but I remember a time when that’s all I could think about for days at a time and it would cause worry in my small heart. When I was around 11 I read the book, “Heaven is for real” in which the young boy described God telling him that his father would take part in the war against evil during his lifetime. That left me somewhat terrified that the life I led could be disrupted so soon.
Of course no one except God knows exactly when the end times will be, so it was quite a waste of worrying when I was younger. But anyone could see it’s a lot of stress to put on a small person without a fully developed brain.
But it’s more than obvious that the society we live in is beyond the point of corruption, many people have turned away from God and forgotten all morals. And the signs that have been prominent in today’s world seem to point to one thing. The rapture. All I can pray for is that myself and everyone I love and care about will be spiritually prepared if judgement day decided to appear tomorrow.
Have you ever looked at another person, and all the wrong that they commit, and think to yourself, I’m such a good Christian since I don’t succumb to the bad things they do?
I’ve caught myself doing this before, but who am I to judge a child of God? I am in no way better or higher than them.
I believe that every individual is faced with their own obstacles in life. And even though mine may not be drugs or alcohol (things that tempt many teens), I can still work on many things to improve myself. For example, I ask God to help me have more patience and less anger in every aspect of my life since those are things I struggle with. Because, by measuring my strength in the Lord by comparing myself to others’, I am not being a good Christian example to the people around me.
My biggest prayer for this year, and all years ahead of me, is when people look at me or talk with me, they walk away saying “wow, I can see the spirit of God in that girl.”
Thank you for listening to me rant about my random thoughts, I’m so grateful I am able to freely write about anything I desire on wordpress and express myself to my readers. What have been your thoughts lately? Anything new with you? What are your thoughts on the rapture? I want to chat with you all!!
Love all. Love Madeline. and God bless.
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